52 minAlcohol
She hid her alcohol addiction behind modelling and travel
Sophie Sumner/Model, six years sober
22 conversations
Mental health and suicide
The nights people planned to end it, and what stopped them.
This is the heaviest set of conversations on the show and the reason a lot of people write to me. Gambling in particular drives people closer to suicide than most of the substances do, and more than one guest here says so plainly.
They describe the nights they planned it and the thing that interrupted them. If you are in that place right now, go to a room today. Gamblers Anonymous is free and there is one starting somewhere within the hour.
The conversations
Every episode about mental health and suicide
52 min
41 minGambling addiction
His daughter was in the hospital, and he was home gambling
Joe Pizzimenti/Last bet December 2013
43 minOther drugs
He tricked three doctors to feed his Adderall addiction
Anthony Scamardella/Eight years on Adderall, in recovery
46 minMental health and suicide
What always happens before you find out you are a sex addict
Craig Perra/The Mindful Habit System
55 minHeroin and opioids
She would rather have been dead than sober
Madeline/Seven and a half years sober
40 minOther drugs
I overdosed on water and woke up from a coma
John Rokee/Near-fatal overdose, in recovery
58 minGambling addiction
How DraftKings and FanDuel engineer addiction
Jonathan Cohen/Historian, author of Losing Big
45 minMental health and suicide
Everything looked perfect on Instagram
John Scafiddi Jr/The Journey podcast, founder of At War
53 minAlcohol
Famous at 18, in a psych ward at 25
Jonah Marais/Why Don't We
38 minGambling addiction
What his wife put in the pizza box changed everything
Eugene K./Five years clean, Gamblers Anonymous
39 minAlcohol
A handle of vodka a day put her in a coma at 30
Adriana/Cirrhosis survivor
39 minAlcohol
A belt was around his neck when the bathroom pole broke
Cormac/Love Island USA, fitness coach
54 minGambling addiction
He staged his own robbery to hide a $20,000 gambling loss
Adam Joseph/Ten years of hidden gambling
31 minHeroin and opioids
She nearly lost her arm twice and still didn't stop
Lauren G./Philadelphia and Kensington
1 hr 8 minOther drugs
Lamar Odom on the coma and the night that almost killed him
Lamar Odom/Two-time NBA champion
43 minGambling addiction
Gambling addiction almost killed him by 28
Anthony Natoli/Tech sales, San Francisco
58 minGambling addiction
A therapist on why you think you'll win it back
Gambling therapist/Clinician
51 minGambling addiction
I lost $580,000 in ten days and wanted to die
Joe Cannon/Twelve-year gambling spiral
1 hr 1 minGambling addiction
He lost everything gambling, then paid back every person
Moshe/The Watch King NYC
51 minOther drugs
Surviving the mafia, addiction and domestic abuse
Renee Graziano/Mob Wives
1 hrGambling addiction
He won seven figures, then lost it all in 24 hours
Mike Steinmetz/Entrepreneur, former actor
2 hr 3 minHeroin and opioids
I had a $1,200-a-day pill habit
Kevin Lanning/Interviewing me
Elsewhere in the library
Other things people come here for
- Family and relationshipsThe marriages that survived it, and the ones that did not.30
- Rehab and treatmentTwenty-five treatment centres, one that finally worked, and why.28
- Gambling addictionThe addiction that leaves no track marks and no smell on your breath.21
- Sober living and habitsThe unglamorous daily mechanics of staying clean.21
- AlcoholHigh-functioning drinking, hidden bottles and the double life it takes to keep it going.16
- Debt and moneySix figures gone in an afternoon, and the years spent paying it back.16
Mental health and suicide is one of 16 topics every episode of Nothing's Off The Table is tagged against. Search the whole library.
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