40 minHeroin and opioids
25 rehabs failed. A kidnapping is what finally saved her
Ashley Moore/In recovery
10 conversations
Relapse
Four years clean and then one bet. Why it happens, and what comes after.
Relapse is the part of recovery people are least willing to talk about, which is exactly why it is worth a page of its own. Four years clean and then one bet. Two years sober and then a bad week.
The guests here go through what the days before it looked like, what they told themselves, and how they got back. Nobody in these conversations treats it as a moral failure, and nobody pretends it did not cost them.
The conversations
Every episode about relapse
40 min
44 minGambling addiction
He answered 18 of 20 gambling questions yes at age 18
Sal/Gamblers Anonymous, since 1986
39 minAlcohol
A handle of vodka a day put her in a coma at 30
Adriana/Cirrhosis survivor
54 minGambling addiction
He staged his own robbery to hide a $20,000 gambling loss
Adam Joseph/Ten years of hidden gambling
31 minHeroin and opioids
She nearly lost her arm twice and still didn't stop
Lauren G./Philadelphia and Kensington
50 minAlcohol
Her kids found her passed out at a 0.47 BAC
Anne/Michigan, seven years sober
42 minGambling addiction
He got high while shopping for his own rehab clothes
Jordan Freeman/In recovery
53 minAlcohol
She drank Listerine when her parents wouldn't let her have alcohol
Caitlin/In recovery
1 hr 10 minAlcohol
She shouldn't be alive
Kat/Treatment centre owner, nine years sober
2 hr 3 minHeroin and opioids
I had a $1,200-a-day pill habit
Kevin Lanning/Interviewing me
Elsewhere in the library
Other things people come here for
- Family and relationshipsThe marriages that survived it, and the ones that did not.18
- Rehab and treatmentTwenty-five treatment centres, one that finally worked, and why.17
- Mental health and suicideThe nights people planned to end it, and what stopped them.14
- Gambling addictionThe addiction that leaves no track marks and no smell on your breath.14
- Sober living and habitsThe unglamorous daily mechanics of staying clean.10
- Debt and moneySix figures gone in an afternoon, and the years spent paying it back.10
Relapse is one of 16 topics every episode of Nothing's Off The Table is tagged against. Search the whole library.
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